Day 56!

I've gone through 56 days of the 12 weeks BFL programme and I have 30 days left to go.

Honestly, it has not been very good as I have faltered on my eating as well as my exercise regime. If you look at my journal, I have stopped writing my activities since 1st August 2006 because that was the first day of me going back to working 9-5pm as an employee for this company called Media Architects Pte Ltd.

Suddenly, my usual training regime had to change and I also had more BODYCOMBAT(BC) class to teach.

I did not mind more BC classes to teach and the one that made me falter was the 9-5 work. I was feeling very mixed about the work in Media Architects(MA) because the pay package based on commission is better compared with my own business. I felt like getting the job in MA is like a prayer answered and I took it on with determination.

I realized that I put myself in a difficult position because I had little knowledge and experience doing Technical Sales for MA products. However, I went ahead with it anyway because I felt that the discomfort doing it is stretching me and making me grow. I felt that it was good for me to work for MA because there is good learning experiences from it and I know that if I were to feel uncomfortable doing something, I am doing something right.

However, I have no passion selling MA's products. The only thing that made me want to get up and go to work is the money. And it is making me feel very very unhappy.

So far, I have been in MA for a month and I have not closed any sales. I still get a stypen and it is not a lot of money.

If I were to list out the positives and negatives of my experience working in MA:

Positive:

• The job pays well. I can earn more money when I close more deals.
• I earn a monthly stipend for the 1st 3 month until I can earn enough from commission sales.
• I have a great boss who does not stop me from doing my BC teaching.
• He supports me by helping me with the technical knowledge of MA products.
• The workplace is 3 minutes walk away from the Buona Vista MRT Station and I don’t have to change MRTs to reach there. It is one straight 45mins train ride from Simei MRT Station to there.
• I work in a comfortable office with great amenities like:
o Air conditioning comfort
o Free internet access (wired & wireless)
o Free hot and/or cold water dispenser
o I have my own table
o Eating areas that is closeby
• I have a “boss” who goes out with me for lunch together.
• I get to learn new technologies concerning Audio and Video technologies and how to apply it to Video production and post-production houses.
• I have a great “boss” who doesn’t scold, speaks to me with calm and patience.
• I don’t get scoldings or naggings from a worried mother who thinks that I don’t have a well paid job prior to working for MA.
• I get to meet and speak to all sorts of people. Improves my NLP skills.
• I can still run my Alief I.T. Services business.
• I’m employed or in the workforce.

Negative:

 I am not really enjoying what I am doing.
 I feel lost when I am at work.
 The learning curve is relatively steep.
 This job doesn’t align well with my passion of leading a healthy lifestyle.
 I feel like I am dragging myself out of bed whenever I am going to work.
 I miss being able to go to the gym at a more comfortable time.
 I am not able to eat properly.
 I have less time to pursue what I really enjoy doing:
o Internet Marketing
o Workouts at the gym at anytime I want
o Doing more BODYCOMBAT (cover) classes

Now, the question is, am I going to continue doing this or should I do something else?

The quickest answer that I can give now is:

“Yes, I should quit and do something that I am very passionate about.”

One of the concept of being a rich and successful person is to do that thing that one is very passionate about and to do it so that many people gets the benefit without having to focus on the money because the money will come eventually; and that the person will want to continue doing it even when he/she has become rich and successful doing it.

Example, Tiger Woods is not a multi-millionaire because of the game of golf that he started playing when he is a young boy and he still continues playing golf because he loves the game. He is not retiring yet even though he has enough money to do whatever he wants, whenever he wants, with whomever he wants, however he wants, wherever he wants; as long as it is ethical, moral and legal.

The same with Michael Jordan who loves basketball so much that even when he retired rich and successful, he went back playing for the Rockets!

Looking at the negatives, I think I can get rid of some of them like “not being able to go to the gym” and “not being able to lead a healthy lifestyle” etc. Like I can still go to the gym if I am disciplined to get up at 5am to hit the gym at 7am and then go to work at 9am. I can still do that. I did that before and I can do that again.

I can still watch what I eat by choosing more healthier foods and watching my portions.

I believe that my problem(s) is the work that I feel is hard. However, I only have to ask my “boss” for help to understand that technologies and the rest is ‘on-the-job-training”.

I believe that my problem here is my attitude to adjusting myself to a relatively new environment. I believe that I should be happy being able to get myself into something like this because the learning experiences is priceless.

If I still want to pursue my passion, I still can.

So, people, what I am going to do is to hang in there for awhile and adjust myself as needed so that I am successful in this career path of Technical Sales in MA.

Yes, I faltered in my BFL programme but I still have 30 days more to go so I should not quit it and continue with it. If within 84 days I didn’t get my 10% body fat goal, I can still pursue it another 84 days, isn’t it?

So, today I did not do any workout because I was feeling really depressed with myself as to why I am not Financially Successful yet. I spent the whole day sleeping my life away. I really got to do something about this attitude.

At least now, I am working on a PC project for my own business that should earn me SGD$95.00 once it is complete.

Tomorrow, I am committed to go to the gym to do BODYCOMBAT at 10:30am.

Cheers! =)

A!